Sunday, May 07, 2006

bleh. still cant find math tuition. lol.

oh wells. i was thinking. u know movies right. like those of harry potter, they are really based on a book. so i was like thinking. wad happens if i m more of a word person den a visual person. wad if i prefer the novel version den the movie version. wad happens if i m too busy to actually watch the movie, but with the novel, i can carry it around, read, reflect perhaps or think. i prefer the novel, in words, heh, but u keep thrusting me into the cinema. believe me, i will not watch the movie.

good day. good service. i think my lips bleeding cus i can taste some blood. heh. oh wells. redundant information. word was really good heh but unless we act upon it, its quite useless.

anyway. i think coming such a long way. somehow or rather we r growing distant. argue alot more, dun talk to me much and even if u do, we never talk like we used to. we cant tolerate each other anymore. somehow i feel like i dun understand u anymore. so i ask u and i ask myself again. why why why??

on a happier note, at least i m quite unburdened, heart feels much lighter, more of a question in my head than a problem. heh. oh wells. if u can differenciate the two that is. integrating them only brings more trouble. oh wells. somehow, my mom has a part in this which i m not so happy about. my gut tells me so. i rather be transferred. i can carry my backpack of crap anywhere.

a bitter pill i swallowed. guess its gonna leave a 2 year long after taste. not that i cant live without u but i guess its gonna be quite tough seeing u disppear from my life. if u noe wad i mean.

i love God and all heh but i used to have this emotional release that was to take a soccer ball and just smack it everytime i was in a bad mood. heh. good exercise. takes the tension off. some satisfaction. occasionally some glass breaks. my soccer ball's gone. stupido matthew. lost the vicious shot. oh wells.

|cowpoo| 1:54 PM|

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